altair,
I too, can simphize. I had my personal boughts with getting older faster than my age. Sunk into depression. Pretty much lost my selfasteem. One of the biggest things that I found helped me through it, was finding something to focus on. I chose my career. And because of that, I would not be financial secure. I have found something I enjoy, which helped me through it all.
I still suffer from a selfesteem issue. The world isn't kind. People are quick to point out your flaws, and it only supports what you are depressed about.
I have had two HT's now. 1st when 26, then 2nd at 28.
I plan on getting one more. All density.
Good Luck to you. Find something to focus on. Something perferably that you can make money on, wether it's your career, or some kind of investment.