Hey buddy, I know it seems awfull, but it's not as bad as you think! I too am at around 4 months, from my second HT, I had no shock on the receipient area, but plenty in the donor! I too felt like I had made a mistake....But it's all coming back strong...It just takes time...You got to stop obssesing...it makes things worse...I'm certain you will be fine...Keep on smiling
Just a thought from the peanut gallery....