so my part of the story is that i had one procedure 2 years ago and obviously i felt horrible about my hair or else i would not have gotten a surgery. i look back at pictures after the surgery and cringe to an extent because i had to deal with a doner scar that stretched... but i knew that after a while i would have hair so that it made me feel better.
so ive always been happy i did the procedure. despite my regimine of dht-stopping agents my hairloss has continued, although considerably slower.
since i joined this site i have learned to be a pretty good hollywood makeup artist. using the various masking techniques have improved my appearance, but yet, always after the shower I get so depressed because i dont have the agents in my hair and the truth is revealed.
of course i am trying to deal with it but hairloss is so consuming; i think about it alot, which is why i will go get another ht to help to not think about it as much.
my first ht was very small and a lot of the posters on this board questioned the ethics of a doctor that would do such a procedure. i couldnt completely understand what the big deal was but i guess one point was the donor scar that was left behind, and also it leaves a patient very hungry for more work.
what really gets me is that although people do not acknowledge my hairloss that much anymore, people seem to react differently to me if I have a hat on. to me thats depressing also. its like if i keep a hat on i can feel the way i'm suppose to feel. when i take it off, dont get me wrong i try to exude an aura of confidence, i just dont feel like it works as well as when im covering up my hairloss.
that probably in my head. most likely. there are a lot of balding or bald men that couldnt care less. they seem to be living ok lives with friends and family and content with their situation.
i guess because of all of the negativity ive experienced from people has made me so self conscience. and i cannot just change my chemical makeup to tune out those detractors. ive got "feelings" (yep).
so an HT, to me is a great solution. especially now. now i am at a stage in my hairloss that is very interesting. i am now forming the shiny head, [and for the life of me cant understand why a balding head gets shiny.] so these days no matter how much masking stuff i put up there i still have these areas that reflect light considerably.
i doubt after my next surgery i will be too depressed. i am only worried about post op redness. i can deal with everything else but the redness. after that goes away I ve got to deal with the grafts coming out and shockloss but pretty much i really believe in 12 months ill be so much happier.
but i still wonder why i'm the one who has to go through this rigamarole.
cas