Hey Sam23.
Sorry to hear about your depression about the outcome of your HT. For what it is worth you don't sound like a psycho,
I'm sorry you have suffered with hairloss and a poor surgery outcome but I admire the fact you mustered the courage to address it directly in the first place.
It appears your HT doctor was irresponsible with his false assurance regarding the risks of this procedure and the aftercare sounds awful. Have you checked to see whether he is on the ishrs list? Do you feel comfortable posting photographs on the forum to see whether other members can assist?
You were brave enough to go ahead with the surgery as well as showing determination in the way you returned to the surgeon in an effort to get him to rectify the poor outcome. I want to remind you that you are still that guy & you are capable of continuing your hairloss journey until you have found a satisfactory result.
So pick yourself back up and continue this battle, its a temporary set-back and there will be a solution!!
My advice would be to seek guidance from another HT doctor about possible remedies and corrective surgery options, also please consider speaking with a GP or local Doctor regarding your depression and ongoing pain, get yourself off the couch and back in the gym if you feel able.
I'm very new to the forum and the HT arena so I'm hopeful more knowledgeable and experienced members will provide some wise advice shortly.
In the meantime, keep your chin up and if you need to vent on here, I'm sure myself and others will support you.
All the best,
Will