Hi John,
I really feel for you and I'm so sorry about your story.
As mentioned before, we all want to help you and told you about your repair options. There are several great doctors or their advisors posting on this board. Feller, Shapiro, Konior, H&W - they all helped so many guys. There's no reason to doubt. Aside from that, at this point you have to believe in someone. Feel free to have a look at the incredible number of weblogs created by patients.
To be honest: If you talk about your story countless times in overlapping threads, it'll be like a pain in the neck. We are no doctors. We are laypeople. We can't answer all your questions. And I even think, it's not necessary, because some of your thoughts are disconnected from reality.