KeepingWhatIHave,
I am touched by reading your posts.
I can FULLY understand how you feel.
i think I am suffering as much as you do.
I am about 29 and started loosing my hairs at around 21-22.
it effected my mental health so much that I did a HT in 2003,was a small session with VERY SMALL (if any) improvements.and I was taking propecia even before that.(still taking propecia).
but it was in 2006,when I really started to panic about my hair.I started wearing caps and hats EVERYWHERE.
I finally managed to get a second hairtransplant in UK in 2008 (UNFORTUNATELY).
which I put all my hope and all my savings into.
18 months on,I have gained a very little hair in the front,and losing more in centre and crown.
I now know I should have researached alot more,AND that a hairtarnsplant is never gonna give most if not all people a full head of hair.and I know the clinic that can give me an acceptable head of hair is H&W in canada (I live in UK).but there is no way I can afford that at the moment.so I still wear hats every day,every where.I HATE IT.i hate to take a comb with me every where I go and go to the bathrooms asap try to comb over my hair if i have to remove this stupid cap.
I avoid almost all social activities,I avoid going to anywhere I can't wear a hat.I hurts me.it's on my mind all the time.
I look a great deal younger when I wear the cap and I am a relatively good looker (whith a hat) it hurts me so bad when I think removing that hat will change all that.it's just so unfare and cruel.
and I have even though abouht what you have decided to do (going thorough sex change and also suicide).because for me too it is impoisible to live as a bald guy (specially with donor scars at back!) and I will definiately consider suicide if that day comes.
BUT i think there is hope.I might get a good hairtransplant at one of these very few good clinics one day which will change everything.
when I feel so down and depressed I usually come to this site and see the pictures of succesfull patients,their stories and their experience it gives me some hope..sometimes it brings tears to my eyes.so I am suffering aswell.
I understand you have started taking male hormone blockers/female hormones,well good luck.but I hope it's not just for the porpuse of hairloss that you are doing this.
I just wanted to say there are some people who suffer from hairloss in a highly worse scale than others,and I think you and me are among those.
sometimes I just WISH (I really mean it) if I could go out without a cap.
hair loss is the worst thing in the world..