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well I guess im going to change my focal point back to where it should be and that is figuring out how to reverse the fut cons and going to set up consults with the best fue docs in the world

mickey I don't have anything against david, and im glad that he has shown concern for situation but ,I just want to make sure that if hes going to bring my surgeon into this that it remains fair for me as well. and I want to get my entire story out there before this transpires into something I don't even want to deal with because I don't like making people upset im on an emotionall rolercoaster and I hope you guys can understand.

please change it to- depressed with recent fut thank you

david I appreciate your concerns. I call it how I see it though.

idk why the title of this thread has been changed? idk how I could ever get a fair response from a biast site that works with the surgeons synergistically,i wouldn't be wasting my time on here talking about my ht that I regret if I actually didn't regret it. I don't like drama, I find it scandalous that a moderator here is trying to instigate something between me and the surgeon, when I wanted to delete the post where I metioned the name of the surgeon before anyone even saw it. I find that like childish, and it brings me back to previous traumas in my life where other kids would forcibly instigate me and other people to get into it for absolutely no reason but there own pleasure,when the fact is i do nothing and im an introverted nice person. I can never catch a break in the beginning of meeting the doctor, she did bring up the topic of BDD,and I stated "I was told i had that" because i was diagnosed years ago but I was told that they did not think I had BDD and not much else was discussed about that I was unhappy with the way the doc responded to one concern I brought up out of the others I could not muster up the courage to say, because like I stated before, im not good with standing up for myself because of my past history of trauma and post traumatic stress, and b.c I don't stand up for myself I get blamed for trying to be a victim. I told the doctor I was looking thin in the donor area, and I got a response "that it looked like normal density" and that by the time she got to one spot that she claimed it was a "little thin" when it was blantantly obvious my scalp had been traumatized, I provided pics here before, and when I get the time I will provide them again, and take updated photos as well. I didn't even want to bring up the doctor and to be honest it was a mistake. I wanted to delte it about 5 mis after I posted after I realized it was impulsive. but I find it hard how fairness can be exemplified on this site.

hdude46- im not trying to play the victim here, I take responsibility for this, its my fault, you don't know how my life has transpired up to this moment, I did bring up some come concerns but I was disappointed with the response. taking the plunge- I came here for support, im depressed, and unhappy yes. but you not in my shoes, you don't know me personally, and im smart enough to know that the surgeons are in coherts with this site, im not the only one who has advocated there severe depression after a failed ht. im only 20. I state all the time here that, I don't mean to offend anyone, but im often attacked even after explaining myself, im not on here everyday complaing or starting "drama", but I thought it was important to put my story and struggle with this failed ht so other young men my age think twice about the fut method. sorry if I offended anyone, im a young man, id like you guys to put your self in my shoes. I started loosing hari at 15 and now im 20 with a ht im unhappy with, and I feel like I cant live my life. im sorry for being brutally honest, and seeking support on here because I have been to about 20 counsolers in my life before and after my transplant, I have been to hypnotherapy and I still do the hypnosis today, I eat a paleo diet and ride my bike 2hrs a day and go for long walks, I have done brain training and I see a functional medicine doctor, I have tried brainwashing myself with positive affirmations and positive mind movies, I have been on every anti-depressant in the book, and I currently see a physcitrist. so when I get the moderators on here saying to go seek professional help, I ignore it completely because ive been here and done that and im currently doing that, ive tried harder than most people on this site to get over an issue like this. I feel like I get attacked on here because its easy to tell someone who is suffering to go get help and to calm down and not play the "victim" when they themselves are not experiencing the same issues as me. im not an idiot, I just came here for help,

well let me give you a quick background on how I am as a person. -I enjoy making people happy, im a people pleaser -I have trouble standing up for myself and telling someone that they have ruined my life in person, this would be hard for anyone to do, especially me. -it was hard for me to bring up my serious concerns to the doctor in the first place because I didn't even want to go see the doctor, because my mom made me go in order for her to help me pay for another sugery, she wanted me to follow up with the doctor, I did not want to go see the doctor soo I can already predict how the doctor might have thought I felt about the surgery, and what the doctor will say in the rebuttal, but whatever I guess I gave the impression that I was ok with my results, just so I could get out of there, I honestly ddint want to be there and had some low key panic attacks

im on propecia 1mg, topical minox 5% w/ azelic acid .01 % propecia and biotinyl tripeptides, im using LLLT therapy laser helmet "theradome" and nizoral alternated with regenepure. my hair loss up top has stabilized, but unfortunately the trauma from my last surgery progressed me a nw even while I was on propecia, which really amazed me im so unhappy with this result, I just cant live with no hair after this, I want to be normal, I want a life, I guess that's to much for me to ask

thanks for your input hdude46, im conflicted between fueing the scar and up top, or doing a revision and adding the grafts from the revision up top. im scared about a wider scar, but I concur with you that all 3 of those strip surgeons have provided evidence of excellent donor closures and are all around top notch strip surgeons. but im also scared about more tension in the donor area and reduced laxity that may add to my problem with thinning under the scar and further distort the natural gradation/hair direction growth under my scar. id say I over quoted the amount of fues I need for my scar, id say between 500-800, not 1000 up top I need about 1000-1500 for something I can be happy with. what do you think? once again thanks for your input, its greatly appreciated, seriously

I just wished I was pointed in the right direction by the doctor, to someone who had more experience with fue instead of recommending strip because the doctor doesn't do fue often and probably thought I would not get an aecthetic result and you know what...the strip scar is just as bad as the other fut cons I had absolutely no idea about...thinning under the scar/abruption of natural hair gradation and a change of direction of hair growth under the scar..... it takes going through a minefield of info to find these other two cons of fut that aren't talked about often, and if I had known about one of those to I would have run for the hills away from fut its just haird for a na?ve 19 year old with severe depression/bdd to navigate his way through misinformation and photos that don't tell the whole story, while being ina rush to live a normal young adulthood before all those years get wasted. idk how im going to get through all of this Im thinking Lorenzo or bisigna for a strip scar repair and adding density, any opinions?

hdude46 I couldn't agree more I definantly had realistic results as im a low nw I thought coalation docs could be trusted on this site...but I was dead wrong...im only 19 but yet I feel like I might as well be in my late 70's because I feel as if my life has already gone past me ombination of recell into the scar and then adding 1000 grafts into the scar and about 500 grafts on top and be done with this....but this is extremely unlikely...but all I can do is hope and wait in isolation while I watch my life pass by with many missed opurtunities and things id love to be doing at this age...to many activities to name this is all my fault... and I take 100% responsibility and I have accepted what has happened to me...but, this does not make me any less depressed or have any sense of relief I will be traveling the country to the few FUE docs that I have seen that have provided evidence of trustworthiness,honesty and perserverence with making the best aesthetic result for the patient that he will not regret the doctors I will be seeing soon for consult/repair are- Lorenzo,hakan,asmed,mwambabisigna and maybe feriduni or umar and one that can not be named here for some reason

well how about I just delete my post instead o drama...

thanks hrsp ill try to keep my heart beating for as long as I can

im sorry hrsp and other members/veterans here, I don't not mean to offend anyone here ejj if your out there, please Skype me

hey guy id like to comment on this thread regarding my experience with a strip procedure.. when I went to consult with a coalation doc recommended on this site I thought I was in good hands(the doctor also has a reputation for "honesty in the field of hair restoration"...but this couldn't be any farther from the truth. I went in for a consult thinking I could trust this person. I was 19 YEARS OLD AT THE TIME OF MY CONSULT AND SURGERY, I was recommended a strip procedure because I wanted to wear my hair long, even though I wanted fue instead of fut. I made a decision out of desperation to have a normal head of hair for my age. I only needed 1600 grafts. So I trusted this doctor and went ahead with a strip procedure. This was the worst mistake I have ever made in my entire life, everyday im suffering/crying about this terrible decision that has made me a different person that hides from society. I had such high hopes for this and I want to do so many things in my life. But im now intensely hindered by the cons of the fut procedure. -My scar stretched -Extreme amounts of shock loss that has not returned almost 10 months post op -Thinning under my scar and now thinning in the donor area -Hair direction change under scar. im now seeking help, my life is literally on the line. I need all the advice I can get... I need to restore normal density/gradation of hair in the donor area and I need to get hairs into my scar im exhausted, this depression is intense, not to mention I was depressed for 10 years before my HT, and now after this procedure...idk what to do ened fut at 19 years old when I only needed a small amount of grafts? why me? why did this doctor take a risk on someone so young like me who supposubly "has the rest of his life ahead of him" I went into a follow up last month after avoiding my doctor because I couldn't bare seeing this persons face after what they had done to me. I showed this doctor my blantantly obvious thinning in the donor area,under my scar and on the sides of my head where the scalp is showing...the doctor then replied to me that "it looks like normal density"...wow I was so heartbroken when the doctor said that to me...this doctor should have had there license revoked after saying that to me..i babied my strip scar and was a couch patatoe for 10 months...and still am because I just don't want to move on with my life. I was then recommended a revision for my scar...even though I told this doctor it might stretch further because they even said that I don't heal well. Let me remind you guys..that apparently this doctor has a reputation of honesty. I bet this post gets deleted, because ive noticed my posts get deleted on here..because no one gives a fuck about a 20 year old male who spends all day crying in heartbroken despair isolated in a small studio apartment, with nothing to do. all because of an unethical procedure. This procedure didn't just affect me...it affected MY FAMILY. my mom has never been so depressed b/c of my serious depression, I feel responsible for the way she feels, but I cant help it, I cant help this feeling, im alone, I don't want to be here anymore. I hope this post doesn't get deleted,because ive never been so sad in my life, and like I said above I suffered from 10 years of depression please mods, I beg you, if you truly care about my well being...please don't delete this post. and fellow HTN members/friends please reach out to me, I need all the guidance I can get so I can get this fixed, and maybe,just maybe live a life?...something I haven't been able to do with a smile on my face since the age of 10. I beg the mods...please don't delete my post.

well my goal is to get fue up top to my frontal third and fue into scar, i have enough grafts for both... only have loss in my frontal third. to future ht doc---its not possible for me to get euthinized so im not seriouss....

thanks for your honest replys guys idk what to do if i should get a scar revision from smg or dr hasson, or dr feller, or even dr koinor anyone have a reccomendation of a strip surgeon with the best donor closure? i want to do fue into the scar but i feel like id be wasting too many fues into my wide scar that could be used up top. the smaller the scar the more success ill have camoflauging and the more hair ill still have for a repair on top but im scared of a wider scar...im in a rut right now with this decision with a revision or a fue i dont want to further shock out/TE my donor area. i hate my result on top, i realize its still early but..even my surgeon said "i like the way you wear your hair, its a justin bieber look"......even though before i entered her office i combed my hair sraight down to show the terrible results on top, i feel like my life is over to be honest, and also if i was a canidate to be euthinized id go in a second

thanks for your reply hrsp like i say they are greatly appreciated i do dream big, all the time actually, but the scary part is, thta i feel like some of the coomplications from my last surgery cant get fixed, and this foils all dreams and makes me think otherwise, i cant explain how close i am, to leaving this life

i actually saw my strip doctor after avoidong her like she was the devil a few days ago, it was a short follow up apoointment not even 10mins long she said that i had what looked like "normal density" in my problem areas, and this COMPLETE BS, im clearly either still having bad shock loss or its a complication of her surgical technique. i brought my mom with me, who also agrees that my problem areas below the scar are thin and lack normal density/ my strip surgeon proceeded to just repeat that it looked fine to her.(its no where near fine, and its blatantly obvious) then she just got up and basically told us to leave with out saying it. she was completely useless, now im going to set up consults with honest fue doc that will give me an honesst consult unlike her misinformation that made me trust her that fut would be better for me than fue(even though i said i wanted fue and that i thought fue would be better)

i try hrsp, i really do i try to hang in there, but im coming down to the end, i am, im coming out with complete honesty, im at a do or die situation, i have pmed a few and im awaiting some replys.

Im 20 years old and i just recently had a FAILED FUT that could have not gone any worse, my strip scar strecthed even though i babied the scar. I am what appears to be thinning under the donor scar and im suffering from shock loss still even at 9 months post op. I got very minimal coverage on top and ended up going up on the NW scale due to the trauma of the HT. I feel my doc was only in it for money, i was only 19 at the day of the surgery. My scalp still feels tight and there are areas where im sore. The hair direction under the scar has changed. this isnt my only issue in life, but wow a failed HT with this disfiguring scar and terrible coverage on top is among the worst pain/depression i ever felt, i cant even explain. Im seriously considering suicide, i have no plans but i do know that in oregon they offer euthinization for young adults. i CANT TAKE it anymore. This is not an image issue, this is a heart broken dysfunctional problem im dealing with following this terrible ht. GOD help me, please i just want this nightmare to end. I cry multiple times a day, and before my failed FUT even though i was a 9 out of 10 on the depression scale i never cried, but now there isnt a day i dont wake up heartbroken and shortly usually after i get out of bed i tear up unconciously. Please any members who can help me and guide me through this HT situation and help me get fixed, please dont be shy. YOU COULD SAVVE MY LIFE! PLEASE! im tearing up just typing this.please dont be afraid to reach out to me. i have 1 foot over the edge, and im sowly moving the other foot in the same direction, if you know what im trying to say. This is my last hope to get myself repaired, but idk if i can make it there, i will try, but i cant be forsure about it, im not scared of death anymore, i prefer it and i think about it eevryday, please anyone to help me you will be saving my life.

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thanks for your continous honest responses to me mickey, right now i am going to set up a consult with them to only have my thinning under the scar checked out, other than that i wouldnt let them fue me right now im only intrested in bisigna and lorenzo

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hye man im just curious do you have thinning under your donor scar?