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I am realising now after sleeping properly how deluded I have been, both in the importance of my hair before and in my degree of hair loss and whether or not I was even a candidate, let alone a candidate for this ultra agressive hairline. I definitely have body dysmorphia and did not realise it.

This is really bad. 

8 minutes ago, HappyMan2021 said:

@botched This must be a typo right?!? You took a half a year off for your post op recovery or what do you mean?

Who was the surgeon?

Your original post is pretty wild and a bit eyebrow raising

For someone who apparently spent a lot of time researching HTs, surely you must know that your provided pic doesn't really tell us much? 

Can you please take more detailed pics so the community can better help assess?

If your post is 100% true, then it is also a good example that not every ht candidate has the psychological profile to withstand the rollercoaster that is HT surgery. I mean this respectfully. Even patients with 10/10 homerun results often have moments of fear, anxiety, and despair following surgery. 

The long and volatile nature of recovery + the increasing complexity of further surgeries (if needed) means this type of procedure is not meant for people who are 'OK' one day and then the next want to reverse course and shave it all off.

It was hlc. I am actually a very stable person normally, the only thing i was in denial about was my nw scale. I had a semi preserved frontal tuft which led me to believe i was less advanced. I suggested this frontal tuft to be the origin of the hairline which the doctor ran with without question. Beyond unethical.

I had the means and opportunity to take time off to recover and travel, which will not happen now.

14 minutes ago, Al - formerly BeHappy said:

Without seeing it from the front there is no way we can give you an opinion if the hairline is too low or not. 

Why would you go through the trouble of having a hair transplant to then suddenly want to shave your head? 

I was not in a right state of mind to object to the plan or abort it which is what I should have done. Now my life feels like it is over.

Greetings. This is my first post on here. I am 35 years old and have been planning my hairline restoration for half a year and this week was finally the date. I have taken half a year off work. I thought I had done my due diligence and choose a clinic with doctor involvement. 

I did have some apprehension before flying out but my mood while on location was more like resignation. I did get some weird vibes from the staff but I chalked it up to cultural differences (turkey).

The consultation was rushed and the doctor pretty much agreed with my preferred plan without pushback. He did say I had signs of nw5 but since I was stable on finasteride it was deemed a non issue. He drew a hairline where I pointed and when I pushed back on it being too low he said it was conservative.

When I assessed my head after the second day of surgery I started to panic. My scalp was way more minituarised than I had realised and the hairline was grafted with max density. I seem to be nw6.

The hairline is also way too low and moves when I wrinkle my forehead.

The last few days have been filled with existential dread over what I have done. The track of my life has been altered permanently and I have gone from an attractive eligible bachelor who could have rocked a bald head to a freak. At this point I do not know if I can work again or get in a relationship again.

As soon as I saw my head the bubble popped. I definitely have undiagnosed body dysmorphia and have been online for too long researching this topic on transplant-positive channels. Now my imagined appearance issues have become very very real. 

I had stupidly kept this transplant a secret from everyone. Tonight when I get home I will consult a friend.

My goal now is to get my scalp to as natural state of balding as possible. I do not want more transplants. I guess smp on donor and some electrolysis or the like on the recipient is in my future.

These will be very trying times ahead.

Is there anything I can do right now? I know the pervasive answer will be to wait and see but I actually would prefer poor survival without scarring to make future removal easier. Stupidly in a panicked state I straight up removed some grafts from the temples.