It has had a bad effect, it set off a depression that has meant that I have made some bad life choices. So it is fair to say it has in a cause-and-effect type way screwed up my life. It's like a continual dark cloud that has been hanging over me, meaning I cam never feel content.
In many ways, I think it would be easier, psychologically, to wake up NW7 from no loss, literally overnight. Yes, there is the shock. But it is the drawn-out process which extends the psychological torture, as you to and from between stages of acceptance and denial, trying to imagine how far it will go, by when, tell yourself it isn't going any more, then noticing it has, getting ready to go out and thinking your hairstyle looks good, then the knot in your stomach as you realise it aint always going to be there.
Also, Mods, at some point in the future I am going to ask the mods on that other forum to pull the thread because I am paranoid about being ID'd, will you guys do the same here, if/when I ask, please?