nitelite2003

hi guys thanks for all your replies and support

My name is chris and I am 27 years old and I have been suffering with something that has taken over my life over the past 7 years and I don’t know what to do about it I have tied to take my own life and have sadly failed by my mother catching me in the process of it and if I am honest I just want my life to be over that’s how I feel at the moment I have been suffering with hairloss for over 10 years now well since I was 17 I started to notice it and its gotten worse over the past few years and not I don’t go out I don’t work and I wear a cap n my head constantly I am so afraid of people seeing me and the how ugly my hair is well what’s left of it is all that I can say I used to be a happy go lucky kind of guy who loved and lived life to its fullest and then 3 years ago my life completely changed I noticed that my hair was getting thinner and thinner on the top and at the front and I went to see my doctor who told me t just get over it and that it will continue to fall out and I need to grow up and face the fact that I am loosing my hair I did not understand why I was as my brother in there 30s have all there hair and my dad was in his late 40s when he started loosing his well I left the surgery in floods of tears and did not know what to do for days I just sat in my room with my head covered not wanting to see what I had been seeing in the mirror I had turned into this ugly person with the only thing let to look at was my horrid baldness my life just crumbled in front of me I felt tat I had lost everything in my life and did not want this anymore. The days seemed to get much worse my self confidence completely drained away I did not leave the house unless I had to and even then it was always with a cap on there is no mirrors in my house what so ever now and I have become a total recluse because of this my life now is 4 walls and a tv that all that I have left in my life now I got to the point where I could not wake u every morning no more with this thing that has taken over my life so I decided I wanted to end it all I got 120 pain killers 30mg codeine over 500mg of paracetamol and I took them at home while my mum was at work but she came home early that day and found me called an ambulance and I woken up in hospital with my mom standing next to me and all i wanted to do was not wake up at all I thought that I had ended it all but because my mum found me I had to live through it all again. I have got to the point now where I don’t know what to do any more and I just don’t want to be here I cant live with this thing that’s happening to me it has effected me so much and taken over me and my life and I don’t know who to turn too I am not a rich person and I don’t have much money but I feel that you maybe my last resort and I am begging you for your help