Nitelite2003,
It might seem like nobody can relate when you feel that down, but trust me, I've been there and so have many others. It doesn't seem like it now, but your Mother's early return from work was a blessing and happened for a reason. Don't forget that.
The most important thing here is that you've got to face the fact that you have a problem with depression. A severe problem. People don't attempt suicide for any reason unless there is a severe depression issue. Yes, your hairloss may have triggered the way you feel and set off a deep depression, but please realize, for anyone losing their hair, trying to kill yourself is well outside of a normal reaction. Thousands of men your age or younger every day face the same grief from hairloss without attempting suicide. Just realize you have a problem with depression and you need help. That is the first step to recovery.
Before you deal with anything related to hair loss you need to get help from a psychiatrist. It is nothing to be ashamed of. A good shrink can help WAY more than a Hair Transplant. If you don't have money for a shrink, immerse yourself in research about depression. Find a support group locally or a depression forum on the Internet. Having a chemical imbalance in your brain is very possible to fix with the right meds, and once you do, you will no longer feel suicidal about your hair loss.
Also, remember that life is cyclical. Bad times eventually turn around, and when they come back again, as they always do, you'll be better prepared and wiser. You WILL get through this my friend. Although it doesn't seem like it, there WILL be many amazing things in your future. Please, focus on getting help for your depression and then you will be able to focus with clarity on other relatively minor issues, and yes, in the whole scheme of life hair loss actually is a very minor issue. There are a lot of people who care on this site, so please reach out to any of us and know that we are here!
Panama Jimmy