...if I don't get my hair back to the way it was a year ago, I might just end it. Wearing a hat every day is frustrating. Taking it off to see my dying hair fade more kills me. My hair is thinning all over, and now that I've been on Finasteride for a month, I'm shedding like crazy. If I run a hand through my hair, I'll have about 30 hairs. This just makes me look even worse.

The only possible way I see to keep my hair entirely is through female hormones... I would honest-to-God, do it. I don't care if it makes me look like a female, my boyfriend probably wouldn't mind that. I don't care if I get a bit of man-boobs. My brother's had them since he was 12. I don't even know where to begin for taking this. That means I'd have to do therapy, see a bunch of doctors, and they'd laugh and go, "Ha, are you serious? Get out of here!"

I feel like I'm falling down a long bottomless pit, yet I won't stop falling until I can hit some form of ground myself. There's no other options at this point (Finasteride can't save my hair... it's thinned so badly just in the past few months. It'd be a God-given miracle for it to thicken what I have).

I honestly don't know if I can take much more of this. I can't live as a bald guy. It's just really not something I can live with. All I can think about now is how bad I'll look in two more years. My parents don't think it's a big deal either. What they don't realize is I feel like I'm about to end it because of this.

It's just hair, I don't know why it's such a big deal, but it is. I see my cousins, uncles, friends all with amazing hair I, and many others would jump through fire for. Why me?

I've never been so irrational about anything in all my life. I've always been the clear-thinker. This one really grabbed me by the ghoulies.

I'm stumped... and needed to get it out.

So castration is not an option either?

I've already discussed it with eunuchs... it's life threatening to do that most of the time. Also bone loss isn't good, especially for a fragile, short thin boy like myself.

The only reason people do that is for... well, health reasons 99% of the time. The 1% are people who just get off by it.

I like your attitude KWIH, as bizarre as that might sound given the circumstances. I've been where you're at -- in a different scenery of cosmos I'm there right now. I guess I'd just say to hang tight as long as possible till' you find an option(s) that you are alright with and can move forward with. I'd also consult with Hasson and Wong ASAP to see if you can get the absolutely boatload of hair moved in one go around which it seems you might demand.

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I've been talking with H&W (reps) for a while on some logical ways to deal with hair loss. They'd recommend Avodart before taking female growth hormones... but that's more or less sacrificing my hairline for the vertex/crown... Plus some unknown side effects that could screw me up mentally in the long run. I'll go with the first option. So once I find a way to keep everything, I'll probably be heading to H&W or Dr. Feller (if he has the ability to reply to an email or answer a phone... it's been four months since I've called/emailed twice). I've already been recommended about 2000 grafts for the hairline by H&W. That sounds great and all, but if I'm losing it all, what good is just some hair in the front? That means I'll have to keep getting hair transplants every year or two, which I really don't have the money to spend $10,000+ every year continuously for however many years it'll take till I can go out in public without a hat again...

I'm sorry I sound like such a downer right now. This just really, really freakin' sucks.

What stage of loss are you at right now?

I think you should see a psychiatrist before a HT surgeon if you are thinking about ending it. Thats scary!!!!

KeepingWhatIHave,
Please feel free to fwd on your emails to me at spexhair@aol.com and i will be more than happy to get the docs opinion for you. Many emails do not make it through to Dr Fellers offcie for one reason or another.
Regards
Spex

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I went from a Norwood I to a Norwood III Vertex in about a year.

I'm really considering it.

And Spex, I've just called and made an appointment to see Feller for a free in-office consultation for November... Thank you though, I really appreciate your kindness.

I agree that talking to a counsellor would be a good idea. I'm pretty sure that they wouldn't laugh at you and ask if you are serious. If they did then IMO it is the sort of thing for which they could face serious disciplinary action.

Clearly this has come as a big shock to you and most guys on here have gone through the pain of MPB. Everything might seem pretty bleak right now but there are lots of options for what you can do about it. This is both in terms of 1. how it actually looks and 2. in terms of how you deal with the negative feelings you have about that.

You'll get through this one way or another dude.

Mike